Why me!!!!?????!!!

So we are stuck at Ft. Gordon. I am not happy but I think I'm really just unhappy in general. I'm not sure how much of my depression and unhappiness has to do with us not pcsing. I just don't know if I'm happy with any part of my life anymore. I love my husband, and I love my kids. But I keep having thoughts of wanting to just leave it all and just start over fresh, with no ties to anyone or anything. But I can't leave them. I love them all so much. I know a big part of my unhappiness is my sitting at home all the time. I really need a job and I need to do something because I feel like I'm just sitting here losing my mind more and more everyday. I love raising the girls and I'm glad to be home to do things with them but it's a nightmare for me mentally and emotionally. And it's not fair to the girls. It really isn't. I just wish that I knew what God wanted for me and my life. I feel like I'm drowning and have no life support.