Down and out

Today I have been feeling a bit depressed. I am not exactly sure why I feel that way, but I do. I really miss my husband right now and it's just been awfully hard as of late. Although, I really should be happy because he will be home in a few weeks or so. I really just can't wait for him to be back home and with our family again. It's bittersweet in some ways because we already know when his next deployment is going to be. So the next months I will always have that in the back of my mind and will know that it is coming again. I have never been so in love with anyone and while this is the life we live currently, it does not make the separation any easier. I think that because our love is so deep and our connection so true, it makes it more difficult. Next deployment our 4 year old will be in kindergarten and our 14 month old will be almost 3 years old. So we have time, but not a ton. I can't wait until that deployment is over and his time in the army is finished and we can be together all the time. At that time our youngest will be about to start kindergarten, our middle will be finishing 1st grade, and our oldest will be finishing the 7th grade. We will finally have the life we are supposed to have and our children will finally have mommy and daddy home all the time.