Test run

Chris was home this past weekend and it was wonderful. Today he left for the field for three weeks and I am calling this a test run of how it will be like when he's actually gone. It won't be bad the first week or so but after that it will get hard. I think that this is a good thing for Meadow because she's so attached to her daddy and she doesn't remember when he was gone the last time. So we will see how she does during this time of him being away. I already miss him terribly but I know that the feeling of longing will only get worse when he's gone for a year again. Hopefully I will have a teaching job and will be busy and so it won't consume me every day.

Last deployment he left from Germany and we had been apart already for a few months when he left. It was easier saying goodbye to him on the phone because he and I had already been separated. But now we see each other and we are together. I'm not sure if that will be a comforting feeling or if it will make me even more torn up than I already know I will be. If I am able I want to be there to say goodbye to him. If not I am going to talk to his dad about driving down there to be with him. I don't want him to be alone in this. Not when we aren't far away. Man, I miss him already.