Orders

My husband officially has orders to deploy and while we have known this was happening for awhile, it makes it official. And it all of sudden makes it hurt worse. I have a position that will help me get through it but I know that the first month is going to be very difficult. The first month is always the hardest and this time I have to figure out some way for my 3 year old daughter not to freak out when she realizes daddy's work is lasting much longer than normal. It saddens me that we have to go through this yet again, but it is even harder to think about the fact that this won't be the last time. We will have at least one more deployment before his contract is up and that is only if he doesn't reenlist again. He will have ten years in and who knows what he will decide at that point. Right now I am just trying to figure out how to keep my sanity for the next little while until he is gone.

I can't take off to see him go and that is devastating for me. Unless he leaves on a weekend we won't be there to see him off. And I will have to go every night without him here and we will not be able to talk as often as we did last time due to the conflicting work schedules that we will be on.

Christopher is the love of my life. He is my rock, and he helps me to stand. Without him I am incomplete, not a whole person. And while it is going to be very difficult to do yet again, we will survive because we know that without each other we are nothing but empty. And through God we can get through anything. Another year will be gone, another year we can't get back. But hopefully it will help us to grow stronger in our love and faith in God and in one another.