Possibilities

Lately things have been really stressful in many ways. Yesterday I was gone most of the day in Georgia visiting my husband. We had to take care of a few things as far as tricare and DEERS is concerned so I drove there. We got to eat lunch together and that was really nice. And we bought Whytney a PSP for getting stellar grades for the entire school year. She is such a great student. Last night Whytney went to the middle school to pick out what instrument she will play in band next year. After trying every instrument there and finding out a couple of them she wasn't meant for, she picked the flute. It was not on her list of wanting to play but that ended up being the best fit for her. So she will start that when the school year starts up again in August.

My biggest stressor is and always has been finances. When things aren't good then I freak out and stay that way until they get better. It is just that now they don't seem to be getting better but stay bad continually. I am trying so hard to find a teaching job but the economy is bad and the governor here doesn't want the stimulus money so school districts are laying off teachers. If they are getting laid off then there isn't going to be any hiring of new teachers. Chris goes to Iraq in a few months and while that will be a slight influx in pay, it won't be enough to pay off things that need to be paid off. He wants to get out of the army in two years and unless I am teaching fulltime I don't see how that is possible. But things happen the way they are meant to and so we will just have to wait and see.

Life is hard when you are the one at home. I know that everyone talks about how hard it is for the soldier, but I believe that this side of it, being the wife at home, is much worse. I've been the soldier in Iraq so I can actually compare the two, which helps. But I am here alone with three children taking care of everything. My husband said when he was home on leave that he sees now why I get frustrated and get upset with him sometimes. I'm glad he sees the daily grind I deal with because it helps him to understand.

Now, if I could just calm down a bit and really try and figure some things out.