Wonders about the stress

As I sit here I wonder sometimes what is worth it. I teach students who have somehow gone through the school system learning how to completely disrespect adults and authority. I love these kids and yet they seem to think that they can get away with anything. I am not going to sit here and play nice when they think it's okay to not do work and not put forth any effort. It just gets to me and I wonder sometimes why I am here.

Other than that stressor, things are going well. It's been over six months since Chris has been gone and it's hard but we are surviving. He gets to come home on leave sometime soon and I can't wait. I miss him terribly. The girls need their daddy home too. We have options we are considering for the future and whether or not he is staying in. We have three years and a couple months before he is supposed to get out so we will figure it out from there. But for now I just really need him home to hold me at night.

Time away

Last weekend I went on a marriage/spousal retreat with my oldest daughter that was through the army. There were a few spouses there whose husbands were deployed and then some married couples. It was fun and we enjoyed ourselves. It was one of those times where I definitely looked at the army in a positive light. We have three years to decide what we are going to do. We aren't sure and who knows what will happen. I know that right now I have a teaching position, but that could change in an instant. I also know that right now he has a stable job and even though he's deployed, we are doing fabulously as a couple. I think that it's making the deployment easier on the kids too because I'm not upset and Chris and I aren't fighting. So we shall see.

School is what it is and I'm starting back to get another master's degree soon. Well like in two weeks. But I think that it's something that is definitely beneficial to what I am doing here. It will help me regardless and I think that having that will help people see me in a different light if I do end up having to move with the army.

Hopefully our house will sell soon but who knows. I have one prospect and so we shall see what comes of that......