Stress

It was recently brought to my attention that all of what I have going on is a lot in each thing. But compounded, like I have, it's huge. And people wonder how I deal with it all. And until recently I felt like my head was going to explode due to it all. But now I'm starting to realize that things are what they are and that there isn't much I can do. I see that there are many possibilities that could happen and I know that no matter what the outcome is, we are going to still be a family and that we will get through it. I am grateful because I have a job and God has seen fit to put me in this position for a reason I have yet to figure out. But I know that there is a reason and that it will be revealed to me in due time. I also know that my children and I will be reunited with Chris at some point. Whether that means we get to live together and see each other daily or we do what we did before he deployed and just see each other on weekends, we will still be a family and we will still be okay. And time will show us God's plan and what will happen in the long run. And the longer we stay in this house, the longer time we have to try and pay some things off and to work hard to make things easier for us in the long run. And maybe that is God's plan. Maybe we are meant to do things the right way and not take any easy ways out. And maybe God knows that if we left this summer we could potentially end up in a worse place financially. But who knows. It's not my place to guess. It's only my place to listen to God's wise words and direction.